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Stephen.. w4m
how did we end up so far apart? I never thought this would happen, and I never thought it could be this damn hard to try and not love someone,I have tried!! I've been in a relationship or 2,and I just can't seem to shake you.... when we met,thanks to my little monster, I knew it almost right away that you were my forever, I never loved,and still do love anyone like that, you are an amazing man,you have a beautiful heart,and I hate that I let it go :/ I guess I have to own my faults for why you're gone.. I'm so sorry,I know I never should have asked you to go, when you so clearly needed my support and love the most. I know that I should have been stronger, because you deserved that much from someone who is supposed to love you. I was afraid!! and you wouldn't just tell me what was up...and sweetheart, I know it was a messy, embarrasing thing to discuss, but know this... you could have told me ANYTHING, and I would have helped you through it.and I still would, I just wanted you to trust me enough to know I would never leave,and I would fight sexy woman looking fucking sex movies through anything to help you do whatever it is you needed to do to get back to where you should be.... when you're here visiting that place I just can't fn stand.. you should be coming over here to talk, all I want is to see you, I just want to hear your voice... don't you miss us at all?! the kids saw ppl playin ball tonight and lil one asked if she could go see you, it was too dark to know if u were over there so I said not tonight.. it was cute and at the same time broke my heart, they miss you and love you too... my whole family does actually lol... it's like we all broke up with you! I just miss your smile,and your voice,I miss the way you looked at me,like I was all that mattered in the world,I miss the way you used to hold me,like you'd never let go.. I just MISS YOU. please just next time your here and I am too, come see me, don't knock,just come in.. I loved you then, I love you now, I always will. don't ever doubt that. N
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